Monday, September 16, 2013

New Mom....Raw and Uncensored!


When I was near the end of my pregnancy I couldn't wait to have this little man out so I could feel normal again. I thought my life would go right back to normal.... I don't think I have ever been so wrong about anything in my life! It was the hardest time of my life those first 8 to 10 weeks. I love my little man to death but I have never felt so not normal in my life. I'm not talking specifically about baby blues or post partum depression, however; my hormones were so out of wack I couldn't control my emotions one bit. I could go from smiling to crying in seconds. Just holding my baby would make me ball. The expression of loving something so much was never comprehendable to me until Chase was put in my arms. I used to think my Mom and Dad were crazy for worrying about me all the time. I need to slap my younger self because I bet I am 20 times worse. I play the "what if" game in my head on an every hour basis. Like... What if he gets hurt? Or what if something happens to me or Heith? What if he stops breathing in the middle of the night while I'm asleep? Get a grip, right? Apparently all these worries go with being a new mom. (And guys just don't get it!) I never understood why people just wanted to stay home with their kids on a Friday or Saturday night. Like, just call a babysitter already and come out to play! When I was pregnant, I thought I'd jump right back into my social life. I didn't think having a baby would change anything.... Ha. First of all, after working 30hours a week, I am literally dying to spend time with my sweet boy. The thought of leaving him again on my off time kills me. Second, it still scares the hell out of me to leave him with anyone except our parents or someone that has not had a kid. You might call it over protective, I call it peace of mind for right now. Third, when we do make it out, all I'm really thinking about is "I wonder if little man is okay. I wonder what he's doing..." Going out with friends seems to have lost its luster for right now, which I'm sure makes me totally uncool & a huge loser, but whatevs. I'm 31, married, & have a newborn baby. Right now, to be honest, staying in is just a bit easier. Do I miss going out Yes, from time to time. However, right now I feel most happy just being home. I also thought I knew a little something about babies before I had one. Ha. I feel like I owe anyone(my sister) I ever gave parenting advice to before I had little man a HUGE apology. Let's be honest, is there ANYTHING more upsetting than when people (who do not have children yet) start giving you parenting advice? Or questioning your techniques? Seriously, while I know some are trying to help, as harsh as it sounds, unless you've gone through it, its hard to put a lot of stock into your words of wisdom. I sometimes wish I could go back & kind of prepare myself for all of the wrong assumptions I was making. Then again, we all know I wouldn't have listened :) While I'm still adjusting to my new normal & feel out of my comfort zone a lot of the time, this guy's smile makes every day worth it. He is my reality now and I love it.

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Finally Posting about it

 Well I took a chance and finally posted the infamous belly shots.  I have had a really hard time wanting to post about being pregnant for some reason.  I have been blessed so far with an "easy" pregnancy.  No morning sickness, or exhaustion so I have been able to continue to work out and feel really well.  Mentally I have struggled though more than I ever imagined I would. 
I'm going to be honest... God is really testing me with this pregnancy.  Testing me in area's I didnt' think I struggled with.  However, I have learned that I am a tad bit more superficial then I thought and I don't like not being in control of my body.  So watching my belly grow, the scale grown, has been challenging.  I understand there is a baby in there and that I need to gain wait (which I have, and am by no means starving myself so don't freak out) but it has just been difficult.  I NEVER would have thought this would have been a struggle for me.  I have talked to a good majority of women and its about half and half who have struggled with this and who has not.  I feel better the more I talk about it and hear other stories like mine, because I have tended to want to beat my self up for having such an issue with this.  Now that I am reaching my 5 month mark it is more real every day!  LOL  I continue to just give it up to God and really try and embrace this whole process.  From what I hear, I will miss being pregnant when its all said and done.  :)

Thursday, October 18, 2012

6 Year Anniversary!!




It's hard to believe that on the 21st we will be celebrating 6 years of marriage.  Time flies when you are having fun!! I also just finished our "First Decade Together" Photo Album.  Wow how much we have changed! :)  I feel closer and more in love with Heith then I did when we first got married, and I never would have thought that would  happen.  God has truly blessed us and our marriage and I am very thankful for every day with Heith. 
  To celebrate our anniversary we decided we are going to be do a little staycation at the Talking Stick Resort this weekend.  We are going to go golfing, lay out by the pool, have a nice dinner, maybe hit the casino, and who knows what else.  Sunday I plan on sleeping in and ordering breakfast in bed!  Once we get home we have to keep the tradition going of watching our wedding video!  It actually gets funnier every year.  :)  Only 2 more days!!!

Monday, September 17, 2012

San Francisco Trip

Lomard Street









Full House Home











On the roof deck at her Condo


Alcatraz



Her Alice in Wonderland front door.




This weekend I was able to go visit one of my long time friends Mira in San Francisco. It was such a fun trip. Too short but we still had a blast. I left Friday evening after work and got back Sunday afternoon. Her condo was so neat and had the most interesting characteristics to the building. I think all I kept saying was hot cute everything was. Her front door reminded me of Alice in Wonderland!


Saturday we spent most of the morning shopping up and down Fillmont St and Chestnut street. They had really cute boutiques there. We grabbed breakfast at a bagel shop and caught up for about an hour just on what's going on in our lives. The weather is quite cool there, definitely needed jackets and a scarf in the morning. It is so windy there which makes it a little extra cool.


The second part of Saturday we went to a few tourist sites. We went over the Golden Gate Bridge which was amazing, we went to Lombard Street, and we went to see the Fullhouse House. All of San Francisco was so unique with the steep streets and hills. I have never been to a big city like that and it was just really pretty. I didn't think I was much of a city girl but I really enjoyed at least vacationing there! It was great to spend that time with my friend too and get a little girl time!


Monday, September 10, 2012

August Update










Well I know it has been forever since I updated my blog. My apologies things have been quite busy around here. First off, my older sister and I through my twin a bachelorette party. Kristine flew in to surprise Nicole. It would have been the perfect surprise but my older sister accidentally blew the surprise! lol. We did a wine tasting in old town Scottsdale and then headed over to the Valley Ho for some pool time. They have live DJ's there on Saturdays so it was packed but a lot of fun. We all ran into different people that we knew there. After that we had a special ride take us to Orange Sky for dinner. We had one large table in the red wine cellar. It was so pretty. After dinner a few of us went out for some dancing and fun at the Mint. I think Nic had a great time with her friends and it was very memorable for her. It was such a fun weekend and week there after since my older sister stayed for a week. We were able to meet my niece for the first time, baby Kenely. She was precious! I must say she loved her auntie too! I'll update more later...lots going on! :)

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

July Events



The Crew


Heith was the highest bowler every game


At dinner, love him!

My friend Jill and I


The guys with the Birthday boy!


Birthday Boy and his wife, with his gifts!


This is where T-bone hung out while we were camping when he was done playing.


The guys


Andy and Heith being silly

Our camp, not a very good set up with the tarp but luckily there wasn't a lot of rain!


Chris, Heith and Andy, in our new camping chair


Heith and I

The other side of our new tent, so much more room


The coolest part about our new tent comes with a light and fan that attaches to the top of our tent.

This is the little light switch that is right inside the camping tent that controls the light and fan


New Tent

So far July has been quite a busy month for us. We have gone to Prescott for Heith's baseball game and then to Payson to go camping for our friend's birthday. These are some photos from that trip. We had just gotten a new tent because our other one finally broke after 7 years. It was time. There were so many new tents out there but we came across one at Sportsmens that we loved. It was huge but the best part was it came with a light and fan that is controlled by a little switch inside the door of your tent. That was what sold us. The size of this tent will give us way more space then the last one had. We went from a 6 person tent to a 9 person tent. This one also is 7' high so it just feels so much bigger as well. In Payson, we were about 40 miles from where the 3 bear attacks where in May and June so needless to say I was a little freaked out about the bears. We had a gun with us just in case at all times. It was nice they had just released the fire restrictions so we were able to have a camp fire. Our usual camping activities include 4 wheeling, shooting, naps, and just enjoying the peacefulness out in the woods. The weather was perfect so it wasn't too hot or too cold. We did get a little bit of rain but not where it was miserable. We left Friday around 3 and got back Sunday afternoon. It was a short trip but lots of fun.

The other photos are from one of our other friend's Birthday. We went to dinner at Blanco's in Scottsdale and then did Cosmic Bowling. We had a lot of fun with them. The photos are not so great because of all the smoke machines in the place but you get the idea! Heith is such a good bowler it drives me in sane. Well at least my competitive side, but all the guys were competing each game more so for bragging rights! I bowled a 126 my first game which ended up being my highest score. I can't stand how sore my wrist gets after only about 2 games. Anyways, just thought I would catch you up with a few things going on with us this month. Stay cool!